The start of my year is terrible. We've been wanting to have a baby for almost 7 years. We were so happy when we found out we have one on the way but after 4 weeks, I had a miscarriage. It was so painful that I didn't want to talk to anyone even my best friend. I hated seeing my friends' profiles; pregnant photos & photos of their kids. There was so much hate that I don't want to see people happy. I kept asking why. Why me when there are other women who just don't want to have a child. I thought no one understands me so I have to get away from everything and avoid everyone. Even my relationship with my husband is suffering. We had a fight and he told me that I have been dealing with things the wrong way. He told me that no problem, no matter how vast, should come between us and God and I should still be faithful no matter what. I am so lucky that I have a husband that is so strong. He's been so patient with me and kept reminding me that God has better plans for us that's why this one didn't work out. Without him I would have been so consumed with pain and hatred. I can say I am better now. I am trying my best to be happy despite pain.
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2 Corinthians 4:17-18 (NLT)17 For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! 18 So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.
xoxo,
♥Bruhkz♥ |
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